Author: Mortal In White

I greeted the New Year with all the positivity I could find in me and planned the heck out of it. It’s only been a week and I have already read a book and have watched five movies. The New Year always brings a great promise, a promise that the dreams will come true and things will be exactly the way I wish them to be. I know it isn’t true or even healthy to believe, nevertheless, it’s my reflex. I am one of those people who hardly stay awake after ten O’clock, but, there is something glamorous about New Year’s Eve.

So, this year, for the very first time, I experienced the cliched moment of striking the clock twelve and feeling Utopia can very well be earth, with my friends. We weren’t in a club, soaked in liquor but in bed, discussing the spiritual realm.

The possibility of souls being trapped in purgatory or possibly they don’t or can’t leave because there is no afterlife. Everything is here and now. No there and later. The possession of the human body and the extent of its destruction. There are so many strands being tied around our neck, I don’t understand why we choose to add to it. Anyway, there were a lot more to our skull session than just the spiritual realm.

And soon the yackety-yak turned into yawning and, the New Year was here.

I think I lost the ‘Rule Book’,

There must be one. Right?

Otherwise, why do everyone expect things?

They haven’t taught me, how am I to know!

I think I lost the ‘Rule Book’,

The one that had all the answers.

The answers to why can I do this,

And not that.

Why I have to be this,

And not that.

Why I should believe this,

And not that.

Why?

How could I lose it!

Wish I knew that it will be most used.

Why was I so careless?

Maybe the book had the answer.

Now, I am just something unhinged,

The book was the anchor.

Will I ever find it?

Help me find it.

Ingredients: 

• Emotion
• Soul
• Wisdom
• Joy
• Conscience
• Generosity
• Charisma
• Self-esteem
• Awareness

Directions:

1. Add one cup of emotion to one cup of soul to form the batter. Set aside for 10 min.
2. Add finely chopped wisdom, joy, conscious, generosity and charisma to the batter.
3. Place 1 tbsp of batter on slightly wet self-esteem and make human shapes.
4. Deep fry in awareness until golden brown, serve hot.

Notes:

• Try to add only fresh ingredients as old ones have opinions and judgements.
• Do not use too much self-esteem otherwise, it will result in arrogance.
• Top with humour, presence of mind, personality and passion for better results.

Our days are limited,
Our breaths are counted.

Tomorrow is guaranteed. Is it?
Yesterday is gone. Completely?

Being alone is comfortable, 
Being lonely is unspeakable. 

Days are passing by, one by one, 
Minutes turn into hours, hours into days and days into once upon a time.

Sitting here I read my ‘Before I Die’ list

Some things are ticked off,
Some things are cancelled off,
Some are just there, waiting to be something, 
A memory, sweet one or even a bitter one.

Don’t know if I have a tomorrow,
Don’t know if yesterday was worth it. 

But today, today I will live,
Something I always wished.