Growing is a way of life.
A way to move forward.
I want to grow like wildflowers.
Anywhere, anytime.

I want to possess that serene beauty and mighty calmness wildflowers seem to have.

I don’t need you to nurture me, nature is enough.
It has given me the tools, all it requires is a little faith.
I want to grow like wildflowers.
Anywhere, anytime.

There is nothing wrong.

He is healthy. He is fine. He is doing what he loves, he is where he wished he could be one day.

But that simpering feeling is there. The feeling that churns your stomach. The feeling that makes you want to cry in the middle of a beautiful thing. The feeling that makes you feel the feelings you would not want to.

He is feeling that, tenfold. He is healthy. He is fine. There is nothing wrong, that the eyes can see.

 

Did you ever wonder about the mythical world of ‘The Mummy’?

Did you ever wonder to take up Librarian as a career because of ‘The Mummy’?

Did you ever wonder If you could be the one saving the world from ‘The Mummy’?

Chances are that you definitely did and my dear, fellow human being, I am with you on that train along with thousands of other people. Some are running after that train.
One of the things on my bucket list was to ‘Visit the Pyramids’ with a doodle of them on the front page. You see, I am dedicated to this list.
So, I found a volunteer project that could benefit me and give me a wonderful opportunity to go to Egypt. My friend and I hopped on the plane and landed at the magical hour of 2 am. And it all went downhill from there.

The accommodation was shit, the work was uninteresting and Egypt- not really what ‘The Mummy’ painted.

But it gave me an opportunity to meet countless nationalities, eat food I have never heard about and make friends for life. I will never forget the vacation cum internship that gave me a chance to understand a culture completely different from mine and let me actually live close to the ‘everyday’ life in Egypt.
It gave me a chance to fall in love with language and diversity all over again. It gave me a chance to learn the things about myself that I never knew existed. It gave me a chance to get lost and not worry about finding my way back.

And I did go to the pyramids which I am definitely pretty smug about. I remember saying to myself, ‘I’m miserable, but I am glad I’m miserable in Egypt’.

He is walking today, in the park.

 

He wants to see the sunset people talk about.

He wants to experience the calm people talk about.

He wants to be like people, people with smiles that reach their eyes.

 

He looks at birds chirping.

He looks at the clouds moving.

He looks at the people running.

 

He is walking today, in the park, one step at a time.

 

Sitting in his room, typing away at his laptop, he feels nothing.

The face does not have any expression.
The heart does not have any expression.

It’s one of those days, days where you feel nothing.

He’s wondering if it matters.
He is wondering what would happen if he disappeared from the face of the earth this very moment.

Will he be missed?- probably.
Will that last long? The missing, the grieving?- no.
Everyone will move on with their lives like he was never here.

Yeah, it’s one of those days.